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So...yeah....
Before anyone asks...no this is NOT an April Fool's joke...I wish it were.
The last few days have not been good, my step-dad is threatening to kick me out if I don't find a job soon. However it is not that easy and in a way he is ultimately to blame but I can of course blame him, but let me explain. When I was growing up most of my childhood and teenage years he was out of work, and I do mean most of it. So he was more a hindrance than a help, never doing anything around the house and instead eating lots and drinking a lot. He's had his recent job for nearly two years, the longest I've ever seen him working, so it's a surprise but he even threatens to quit on a daily basis cause he "can't stand working there". His mother's dying wish was for HIM to finish college but instead he dropped it and wasted the entirety of the grants he got. He promised several times that he would help me and my brother get driver's licenses, to teach us how to drive. My brother had one of his friends help him get his license, and sadly I still do not have mine. Me and my brother had even pooled our money together to buy a used vehicle, before my brother had an accident in said-vehicle so I've been trying to work on it to fix it, to get some driving experience, but that is not easy when I've never done such work before, so I'm having to read a book and look online on how to do things.
If he hadn't been out of work so much when I was younger and ending up having surgeries done as well which made it harder for my mom, then me and my brother would of been able to go to college right out of high school or had a vehicle much sooner. He claims I'm only sucking up resources right now, however he refuses, even while working, to help my mom with any of the bills. He began to scream at me because my mom asked him for money to help pay the mortgage. He should be helping her anyway, he's her husband and yet instead he bought himself a motorcycle and has begun drinking a lot lately and stopped seeing his therapist. He even blames me for the fact that he wants to divorce my mom. However I know he never will, because then he couldn't free-load himself and would actually have to pay bills of his own. On the contrary though, the vehicle my mom uses to drive to work, and the house, is in HIS name. So he could kick us all out at a moments notice and make us all homeless and sadly it seems there is nothing we can do.
Before anyone asks...no this is NOT an April Fool's joke...I wish it were.
The last few days have not been good, my step-dad is threatening to kick me out if I don't find a job soon. However it is not that easy and in a way he is ultimately to blame but I can of course blame him, but let me explain. When I was growing up most of my childhood and teenage years he was out of work, and I do mean most of it. So he was more a hindrance than a help, never doing anything around the house and instead eating lots and drinking a lot. He's had his recent job for nearly two years, the longest I've ever seen him working, so it's a surprise but he even threatens to quit on a daily basis cause he "can't stand working there". His mother's dying wish was for HIM to finish college but instead he dropped it and wasted the entirety of the grants he got. He promised several times that he would help me and my brother get driver's licenses, to teach us how to drive. My brother had one of his friends help him get his license, and sadly I still do not have mine. Me and my brother had even pooled our money together to buy a used vehicle, before my brother had an accident in said-vehicle so I've been trying to work on it to fix it, to get some driving experience, but that is not easy when I've never done such work before, so I'm having to read a book and look online on how to do things.
If he hadn't been out of work so much when I was younger and ending up having surgeries done as well which made it harder for my mom, then me and my brother would of been able to go to college right out of high school or had a vehicle much sooner. He claims I'm only sucking up resources right now, however he refuses, even while working, to help my mom with any of the bills. He began to scream at me because my mom asked him for money to help pay the mortgage. He should be helping her anyway, he's her husband and yet instead he bought himself a motorcycle and has begun drinking a lot lately and stopped seeing his therapist. He even blames me for the fact that he wants to divorce my mom. However I know he never will, because then he couldn't free-load himself and would actually have to pay bills of his own. On the contrary though, the vehicle my mom uses to drive to work, and the house, is in HIS name. So he could kick us all out at a moments notice and make us all homeless and sadly it seems there is nothing we can do.
So I know I've been quiet/away...
So it has been almost a year since my last journal entry. Current job is utter crap and trying hard to find somewhere else to work or even get some grievances filled. Such things as the store manager and perishable foods manager making fun of my weight, store manager getting on my case when I had to go to the emergency room due to severe allergic reaction (due to being allergic to dogs and too many people bringing in what are clearly not service dogs and putting them in shopping carts right where children should be sitting). So yeah not good management staff...I've tried talking to HR and my Union Representative but not sure if anything is being done there. I'm hoping to find some work from home job as my mom's health has been deteriorating and she is currently my primary transportation to and from work (as I can't drive due to being blind in my left eye and public transit is far too confusing the last few times I've tried using it). In other, much more depressing news, back on May
Want to commission an artist but...
...I haven't the slightest clue what to commission. I desperately want to commission someone and upload that commissioned piece to my gallery to give it some new content after so many years...but I've just been clueless on what to commission. So, I'm taking suggestions in the comments, if you have some ideas, feel free to shoot them to me, while keeping in mind that this is a piece I want to have of at minimum one of my characters (so I'm not just going to commission something for someone else). I don't expect much of anything here, to be honest, if nothing else hoping this will help revitalize my imagination or something so that I can think of something to commission.
In so much physical pain...
Sadly I don't have much to update since my last journal, I've been working a lot, and I do mean a LOT since the last time I posted. This due to my working at my local grocery store which is, of course, essential business and thus isn't closing, just like gas stations, hospitals, and others I can't name off the top of my head right now. An upside to all this is that I'm getting plenty of hours, thus more money than I usually get, but the downside is I'm doing more that has become physically exhausting and I end up getting home with a swollen ankle (due to being overweight and on my feet 8 hours straight), and pain radiating in my back from ben
Geez over a year since my last update, sorry.
So I realize it has been over a year since my last journal and thus update on things that have been happening, some ups, and of course some downs.
I took some online friend's advice (whom I can't recall anymore who it was sadly) and started to stream on Twitch around April of 2019. They initially suggested it because they noticed I enjoy gaming and tend to ramble to myself sometimes about things either in-game or other things. I honestly started doing so initially with apprehension, wondering if anyone would even watch me play a game basically, but then in September, I made it to affiliate which shocked me to the core that I literally began
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